Is there something repeatedly that you do, that’s silly and unnecessary, but you keep doing it anyway? For me, it’s when I’m in the shower. After I put shampoo in my hair, I rinse the shampoo off my hands before then using my hands to help rinse the shampoo out of my hair. I have no idea why I do it and I think to myself every morning “why are you doing this?!”.
I do a “silly” thing with my diabetes too. I associate the kitchen with juice. I know, crazy, right? When I have a low blood sugar, my brain makes me go to the kitchen. It has done this for 27 years. Why is it silly? Because there is a bottle of juice and a pack of fruit snacks on my nightstand (as well as a pack of gum to remove the sugar from my teeth..yes, I’m a dork). There’s also this great guy, my husband, usually asleep next to me, who would take care of me whenever I needed him.
As a teenager, low blood sugars would cause my hands to shake. In fact, if I couldn’t tell if my blood sugar was low or not, I would always hold out my hand and see if it was shaking. This resulted in quite a few broken glasses on the kitchen floor from either trying to pour juice into them or drink from them.
I changed my CGM sensor site last night before bed…I rarely do it at this time but oh well. I woke up in the middle of the night to test my blood sugar and realized I couldn’t read the display. After multiple tries, I could read it. It said 33. 33. Did I wake up my husband? No. Did I reach for my nice warm apple juice? No. I got up and walked down the stairs to the kitchen. I was sweating profusely and I’m lucky I didn’t trip over the cat, who was so excited to have someone else up in the middle of the night. I also had the nerve to make sure my Fitbit was on me so my steps to the kitchen would count. I’m ridiculously annoyed with myself.
Do any of you do something similar? Have you trained yourself to stop?