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This is Your Life

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 11: This is Your Life

If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.

No! I can’t think of a worse idea. It’s not the end result, it’s how we get there. I know I will die and I know I will go to Heaven. I don’t need to know much more.

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32 Flavors

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 10: 32 Flavors

Vanilla, chocolate, or something else entirely?

Mint chocolate chip. Preferably green in color from Baskin Robbins. Bonus- served as part of an ice cream cake from aforementioned store.

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Helpless

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 7: Helpless

Helplessness: that dull, sick feeling of not being the one at the reins. When did you last feel like that- and what did you do about it?

I feel this way every day..I just wouldn’t call it helpless. As anyone who has had Type 1 Diabetes for quite some time (25 years for me) knows, you can do the exact same things 2 days in a row and have completely different blood sugars each day. Sometimes your blood sugar is low, no matter how many glucose tabs you eat, and how little insulin you take. I’m sure there’s an explanation- hormones, weather, who knows..but it happens. Every day, my little mechanical pancreas helps me hold the reins for the hopefully-not-so-bumpy day that lies ahead.

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My Favorite

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 6: My Favorite

What’s the most time you’ve ever spent apart from your favorite person? Tell us about it.

My husband started a new job a few months ago and had to be away in Texas for training for 2 weeks. I initially thought it wouldn’t be so bad- the kids and I are used to him working so much, that we have a pretty good routine down. I thought the weekdays would be ok and that the weekends might be a bit bumpy, but we’d be fine.

We so weren’t fine. Beginning with the airport. I thought my daughter would be upset. She was..and so was I. That Sunday dragged on..it was horrible. Every time I went up to our bedroom, I saw his things and was ridiculously sad. Each day seemed to drag on forever and talking to him on the phone just made things so much worse.

Did we survive? Of course. I’d rather him never go anywhere again though 😉

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Quote Me

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 4: Quote Me

Do you have a favorite quote that you return to again and again? What is it and why does it move you?

God doesn’t give you what you can handle. He helps you handle what you’ve been given.

I have no idea where I read this quote or where it originated but I refer back to it over and over. It’s easy to feel that you’ve been given enough burdens- for me it’s my health. I thought being diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes at 9 years old was enough..that was my one illness and I wouldn’t get another, lucky me, things could be much worse.

Then I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis 2 years ago. And it didn’t come quietly- I couldn’t straighten my left arm, couldn’t walk without being in tremendous pain, couldn’t stay awake while getting my hair cut. I thought- why did God give me another disease? Why do I have to be so sick when it seems like everyone around me is healthy.

About a year after my diagnosis, my husband brought me back to church. I realized that my God wouldn’t want me to be in pain, He wouldn’t want suffering for any of his children. I realized that if I leaned into Him, rather than pulling away out of anger, that things would seem better, they would be better. And they are.

As for the icing on the cake (so far), I was diagnosed with asthma a few months ago. I was very ill beforehand, yet I never lost faith. I could feel God by my side, reminding me that even though things weren’t ok, they were ok.

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Kick It

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 3: Kick It

What’s the 11th item on your bucket list?

I don’t have a bucket list..maybe I should, maybe I shouldn’t. But, while thinking about this post, I’ve come up with one item. I’d like to take a trip, by myself. Not because I want to get away from my family but because I want to prove to myself that I can do it. I’m extremely independent, I can’t stand depending on others (I’m working on it), but a trip on my own sounds a little scary. I’d like to force myself to go away, even just for a weekend, somewhere that I’d have to use air transportation to get to.

Since I’m a Type 1 Diabetic and have to travel with all of my medications and devices, flying makes me anxious. I hate being patted down in front of everyone and having the TSA act like I’ve somehow made a bomb look like a juice box. I always feel “safer” when someone else travels with me. For some reason having to slam a bottle of apple juice because I’m low isn’t as awkward if someone is with me. When I get finished with my pat down, someone is waiting on the other side of the line to joke with me or help me get my things together.

The thought of sitting alone in a restaurant for dinner, sounds awfully intimidating. Do I need to work on not caring about others judging me? Should I work on being comfortable while alone in public? Definitely. I think a trip is in order.

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Resolved

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 2: Resolved

Have you ever made a New Year’s Resolution you kept?

Considering it’s January 17th and I’ve taken my vitamins almost every single day this month, I think I’m close to saying I’ve kept my New Year’s resolution.. but maybe we should circle back to this in a few months weeks.

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Stroke of Midnight

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I’m playing catch up! The Daily Prompt for January 1: Stroke of Midnight

Where were you last night when 2013 turned into 2014? Is that where you’d wanted to be?

At home with my two kiddos. Was it where I wanted to be? Absolutely. Did I want my husband to be at work? Absolutely not.

It wasn’t the end of the world- as you grow older you realize that your favorite moments aren’t always scheduled- they don’t always involve an all you can drink NYE ticket to a party out in the city, weeks of planning what to wear, where to eat dinner, what the kids will do, etc.. They are having your husband come home in the middle of the night, wrap his arms around you, and knowing that you wouldn’t want to start 2014 any other way.