I used up my last Enlite sensor last week. Due to an error in Minimed’s system, my order from weeks ago had been caught in limbo until tonight. (My order just shipped, huzzah!) Was I super annoyed with Minimed? Yes. Did I spend hours on the phone with them? Yes. Did I die without having CGM enabled? No. Not even close.
I truly thought the past few days would be horrendous. I considered not going to work, staying home to monitor my blood sugar behind closed doors. I seemed to have quickly forgotten that I spent the first 22 years or so of my Type 1 life relying on a blood glucose machine and the pricks of my fingers. I forgot that I used to go hours without a single finger stick. I relied on my long acting insulin and, more importantly, how I felt.
Over these past few days, I had a few nighttime lows- in the 60s, yet I woke up on my own and not to the sound of a screeching alarm. For the most part, every time I checked my blood sugar it was pretty much on point.
As convenient as an insulin pump and CGM are, I really need to stop relying on them. I need to be able to go an hour and not be constantly looking at my screen to see which way my arrows are going. I need to make a more conscious decision to not correct every little blood sugar because that usually results in a reading which is higher or lower than necessary. I need to realize that I am Molly not Molly, the Type 1 diabetic. I’m working on it 🙂